Ready, Set….GO

Ok, how ironic that my first post is going to be about having the courage to even start this blog. It is so true that when you decide to go outside of your comfort zone, self-doubt and anxiety are waiting for you at the corner like street thugs. When I focused on their appearance I wanted to run back to my safety zone, but when I was able to see that they can be apart of my entourage and not necessarily need to be banished it got easier to take the first step. 

Great quotes I have heard to help me were; “start before you are ready”, “leap afraid", and “do it anyway”. All the quotes essentially saying the same thing. Just DO it. ( In Shila Labeouf style lol) I know my grammar has taken a hit from my main way of texting with shorthand but with consistency, I will get better. Jumping in with both feet before I am ready is akin to skydiving. I have also heard that blogging is about writing for the right reason. Writing for me! 

I love writing. My mom got me a journal when I was little, and since then I have not stopped writing. I have over 27 journals that I have accumulated. Writing is one of my favorite tools of expression and release. It is amazing that while all of that is true, self-doubt is so sabotaging. I would think “what makes you think you can say what has already been said so many times before by those who are more influential”. But then I remember the very reason I thought to even make a blog is because of the many blogs that I have read in many seasons of my life, whether it was for my hair, pregnancy, motherhood or self-love. 

How Blogs helped me

Those blogs helped me feel I was not alone, added value to me. Teaching me something new or giving me a new perspective. I am so thankful for those who had the courage to share their journey and life experience and allow me to see myself through them. That moved me to share my story so that someone out there can feel the same connection. 

My mission is to tell of my journey to loving myself so that I can love others better and give myself the compassion, acceptance, and patience I need to practice self-love daily. I want to say the things people are thinking, but don’t know how to express them. Also, for many who have those who love them dearly but just don’t get it. It’s nothing like reading someone’s story and feeling like someone took the words right out of your mouth. To feel seen, heard, acknowledged, validated for what you feel and have experienced.

I hear a lot that if one person is touched by a message then it was all worth it. But how often do we put so much emphasis on quantity over quality? Let’s be real, let me make this personal.  I say I want to reach “just one” person but the truth is I put way too much stock in numbers. Honestly, if that “one” person who is touched, reached and validated is me then I have done my job! I can’t come on here and act like a guru or expert or even pretend to know what will work for another person. We are all unique. Even if similar there are differences. 

    So all I can do is share my truth, my perspective, my feelings, and experiences and hope whoever reads my words will take some value and see how they can tailor it to their truth. So here’s to starting before being ready. Come with me as I learn to focus less on the outside and focus on the inside job that loving myself really is.